Unable
I am still unable to write.
But let me tell you this:
I am still unable to wrap my mind around losing Alecks.
When I think of him, I am still unable to comprehend how he can be gone. Why so soon. Why good men die young. Why someone who took care of his health could die so young. Why someone who adored his wife and kids, and even an arrogant stray cat he called "Ser" and two rowdy dogs, is gone.
I am not gearing up for some Jobian debate here.
It's just that my faith is being shaken, and I am in pain.
And my eyes sting and tears flow just writing this.
But let me tell you this:
I am still unable to wrap my mind around losing Alecks.
When I think of him, I am still unable to comprehend how he can be gone. Why so soon. Why good men die young. Why someone who took care of his health could die so young. Why someone who adored his wife and kids, and even an arrogant stray cat he called "Ser" and two rowdy dogs, is gone.
I am not gearing up for some Jobian debate here.
It's just that my faith is being shaken, and I am in pain.
And my eyes sting and tears flow just writing this.
posted by atticus at
9:21 PM
24 Comments:
it's meant to be shaken so ultimately you'll have a deeper understanding of it.
sige lang mourn. it just shows how you much you care for him.
then when realization seeps in, you'll bounce back. alcohol might help speed up the process so the next drink i have is for you :) i can tell misis "hon, inom lang ako ha. si atticus kasi.
natawa naman ako roon. haha! gawin ba akong dahilan para uminom? hehe.
Mourn for a lost companion.
That's what good friends do.
But mourn not forever.
For other friends mourn for you.
*yakap na mahigpit para sa iyo*
JJ, you're stronger than steel, man.
Prof Beatburn, you teach english lit sa greenhouse? nabasa mo na tagalog translation nung speech ni Henry V?
blogusvox, yep, i will snap out of it soon. salamat.
UM, salamat po. i feel a bit better now.
tk, akala mo lang iyon. pag ako ang nagdrama, asus, ano ang panama ng mga nasulat ni shakespeare at beckett diyan.
You're still mourning the loss of a dear friend and that's ok. There are people in our lives whose loss we will mourn forever. In your life, Alecks is one of those people. That's ok.
Take care.
atticus, i'm drinking this Friday. to drown your misery.
TK, can't teach in the greenhouse. allergies. ;p
panaderos, thanks for helping me understand this thing called grief. i don't understand half of it.
beatburn, cheers! for the greater glory of drinking!
It just goes to show how unfair life is. The good are taken away from us prematurely, and sometimes violently. While the $%$#&@!, seemingly impervious to death, still remain in this freaking world.
hamo na, rudy. may reward sila kung saan man sila mapupunta.
my father died last year, mourning and denial followed (okay lang yan, ibig sabihin tao tayo), our family took it one day at a time, and each day that passes leads us to moving on.
the pain will never leave us but it doesn't mean we have to stop living.
just mourn, it can help.
tapos magigising ka at mararamdaman mo na lang na sinusundot ka na ng friend mo: "Hoy, im okay na, so be okay na din no".
then you'll smile again.
:)
zherwin, i've been losing friends lately. alecks and i worked in a small square workplace, the backs of our chairs just a few inches away. there was never a day we didn't share a laugh over anything.
it just is difficult remembering him every now and then in a day, and then being hit by the reality that he is gone.
i know it will get better. time makes things more bearable. thanks for your kind words.
I understand why you have such questions in mind. They were the same ones I had when my dear ol' pop passed away about three years ago. But hey, i got over it. Yun lang minsan i cry silently everytime i remember him. Hugs for you...Sulat ka na uli ha :-)
pearl, lilipas din ito. makakasulat din ako ulit. hintay ka lang. konti na lang. hehe.
manang, pagtanda mo maiintindihan mo din ang lahat...este pag mas matanda na pala...
i don't usually tell my friends who lost their loved ones to be strong. i tell them na it's okay to cry and let nature take its course. process lahat. phasing ba. take one day at a time lang.
pag okay ka na, post ka ulit ng old manila pics tapos hulaan natin kung saan yun.
teka parang ambait ko ah. hehehe...
mag-post ka nung mga pics nung PANAHON MO. maski na napakatagal na nun, mahuhulaan pa rin natin. BWAHAHAHA!
-FW
don't hit me, ha
may cliche akong sasabihin:
time heals all things
biglang iwas si raft3r sa batok ni atticus
hehe
hang in there
pero alam mo
tama ka din, eh
ako nag namatayan lang ng aso
halos mabaliw na ako
what more kung tao at matalik pang kaibigan
take time to grief
tapos panahon na ang bahala sa iba
(cliche pa din, ano)
pero kahit paano totoo yan
alam mo
di mo sinagot tanong ko sa facebook
=P
atticus: napuwing naman ako. lahat ng bagay may dahilan, hindi man natin maintindihan ngayon, pag nagkita na muli kayo (siempre hindi ngayon kundi maraming taon pa at maraming blog entries pa) maiintindihan mo rin at masasagot ang tanong na "bakit"
raft3r, nisagot ko na! hehe.
rheiboy, medyo okay okay na. matatapos din ang drama moments na ito. :)
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